The most interesting thing in the world is to have bad work awarded with the best accolades.. but if u analyze it what is good and bad... what is a feeling? a feeling is an animal trait and any one going for a good feeling is just satisfying his animal needs. No matter how sophisticated the need might be. One has to acknowledge that there is no Happiness on this planet everyone has got a need to reach out to people of the like kind and stay away from the unlike rest.So what is it in this world we are looking at. Its not just the daily comforts we enjoy. Its the satisfaction of the specific needs that u have and how to achieve them is the struggle.If u want to become a pioneer rocket scientist then there's a way to do that and there is another to look for new alternatives what matters is how much you have accomplished and What are u going to do in your life. I would say(needs parental advice)that even killing yourself is a accolade you can achieve for the goodness of humanity.Thats what you know is the most confident and fearless act.There has been no objection to mercy killing in recent times. talk about ethnic cleansing and terror attacks. why does am man have to be scared of death when the level of discomfort in our lives is there to stay and there are moments of happiness and saddness. What you should do is kill all the capitalists and that is the only utopia in this world. But the reality is that as the population grows we are surely headed for destruction be that depletion of resources......so the only wayto survive is to encourage commerce across countries. and It is indeed needed. to come back to the real focus. Its what you achieve i life that matters. thats human. a purpose and to be able to fulfill that purpose.
what is my purpose.. do I want to help any one??? no .. a big no..I want self gratification and aggrandizement I don't care what the world thinks of me.. I just want to be self contained and I want to enjoy the contentment of having comforts in my life. I don't want anyone in my life.. except the fact that I will have my needs satisfied . I an wanting to share things but only at a cost. If its gotta be cost and benefit its gotta be that way with the long term plans in perspective. I love adventure and I want change Thats what my experience has taught me. SO I HAVE TO BE WELL EQUIPPED FOR THAT..if I think that the career I have chosen is right and I am going to continue with it.. Its not that way I have to re evaluate my plans and I ahve to be that What I want in mY life lot of adventure good health and self satisfaction .
I decided to become a manager. but that was because I did MBA it was my dad's choice.Which I don't approve of. When I studied in school. I liked physics. but what is the real application of science.to understand and use it in daily life.
How far I have been conditioned.. to a relatively great extent I am 30 now..the big question .. how to break out of the conditioning still stay within the sanity limits. I have to be living in My village but what is that what am I gonna do there.. probably maintain a balance ..
what Do I wanna do.. Yet to decide..
I like writing but it has to be structured to the needs of the people. Do I understand any of the needs of the people around me.
Can I become a sports man ??? NO..
Can I become a jigolo?? that demands too much..
What can I start on my own?? a school..I have to teach small kids..
tution in delhi terms. DO I Want to stay in delhi??? Where can I get results.. and satisfaction..
what is my level. I have been On medication since 11th I have to take a real stock of things
Can I teach Java. . I have spent too much effort in s/w and not succeeded.
Programming and software was a very big mistake.. I don't have the mind for it.. I have wasted 6 years doing nothing just had the moments of my life.
How to bring that youthful energy again??????
whether to stay with Dad or with malini???
the gut feeling with malini is negative but what about longeivety of my dad..
Hard decision...
I will stay with malini..
what are the viabilities of business .. decide on a scale, the strategy and revenue model..
You can always do a low key job and be happy but thats not that comfortable and u cant get what you want..
what do you want in life..
I want to be a teacher..